Anyone who has been following along with me on twitter knows I'm in the middle of writing a new novel. And while the fact that I'm writing something isn't really new, the fact that I'm pantsing it kind of is.
Because for years I've been a hardcore plotter. In the past I've had to map out entire books chapter by chapter with detailed chapter summaries and charts for plots and subplots and character arcs. I'd spend months picking out each character's name before I dare write them into a scene.
And this time...I'm doing NONE of it.
And it's kind of freaking me out.
I'm also writing quickly. I started only a few weeks ago and I'm already around 33,000 words in. I gave myself a self inflicted deadline of typing The End before May ends.
Which leads me to this internal conflict I keep having with myself between each writing session. Half of me gets really excited and thinks, "OMG what will happen next? I cannot WAIT to see what happens next!" While the other half of me is basically going, "Um excuse me, but no. You cannot write this you fool. You do not know what happens next and if you do not know what happens next, NO WRITING FOR YOU!"
Luckily the SQUEE portion of my brain is winning because I keep writing.
So while this is definitely exciting, because I really am in love with this story and these characters and this world and I can't wait to see what happens next, especially how I do get to some scenes that I think I know will happen...I also feel like I'm walking on a tightrope or like I jumped from a plane without a parachute, but totally expect to land in a net below me.
In the meantime, I'm halfway there, which is good because we're halfway through May. I'm not sure if this means I'm officially a pantser and not a plotter, or if this is just one time it will happen. But either way, I'm really enjoying this process I could not conceptualize before now.
And in order to make my deadline, I must get back to writing.
What do you all think? Plotter? Pantser? Both?