I'm feeling much better today than I was last night about the scenes that weren't quite up to par, though I imagined they were amazing the day before. Last night I knew, logically that it was all fixable, and this morning and for part of last night, I went back and made a ton of notes an came up with a plan that should make everything a lot lot better, and more awesome. The funny thing is, that though I knew this all last night I was still a wreck. And I think it comes down to this. Critiques and prime time hours leading into late night are a bad combination! Especially when I worked the whole day. It's late, your defenses are down, you're tired and you know that there is no way to fix the problems because you're about to fall asleep. That's the most upsetting thing...knowing that you can't go back to your computer and redo it all. So I've decided, I'm only going to look at critiques if its before 8, because then at least I will have enough sense to keep my wits about me and I'll have time to actually do something productive about it beside go up to my bed in a huff pouring over a print out with an angry pen.
Also, now that the sun is up, I'm glad I got the harsh critique. It always makes you a bettter writer in the end...just a little hard to swallow up front and after a particularly snooze worthy episode of Melrose Place.